Have i ever told,,, if i really am affraid to start a new relationship again?????

Am i deserve???

I don't think i am.... In my age, everything that i dream about are just flew away... I don't even have a chance for everything i want to be... That's why i hate myself... Why i never had any confidenfe myself....Why i always.be so stupid??? Now since everything has change... And all of my dream are gone, all that will stay forever in my life is just a regret...

Help Me

Can't i live happily without any worry?!!?

Weird Confession....

This really is weird...(It's Totally Weird)

I fell in love..... (I know falling in Love is not Weird), but I fell in love to someone who doesn't even know that I'm exist in this world, i fell in love to someone who is really Great and really hard to reach.... i fell in love to someone who has a different world from me (Of course he is Human... lol...) but we're just like sky and earth,,,, I fell in love to someone that i don't even deserve to fell in love with,,, he's too high, he is too famous, and he is too perfect,,,

But Hey... there is nothing is impossible in this world 1-100 maybe i still have 0,001 % chance to get him.

I know i'm weird, but just believe that he will know it someday, somewhere, i don't know... :)

Just Ordinary

I'm Just an Ordinary Girl,

A lil bit Tomboy, Love Rock, and Watching Movies (My DVD Collections)

I Love Music Because

Let me tell you why i love to listening to music so much??

- Why I love Music :

• Because music is my best friend,
• I have no one but music who always listen to me,
• Everybody doesn't like making friends with me,
• Music is my trash can,
• Since i have no friends to hang out with,
• My room is my place to hang out and music is my hang out friend :)
• Eventhough nobody likes me, but when i sing, i could forget that matter for a while,
• I can't sleep without listening to the music,

I'd like to thank to everyone who creating a great music, and thank's to the music itself, because without you, i might not standing until now, and i may not have a dream..... thank you so much....

My Confession

What was it called? Depression?

Oh...I'll tell you something about me...

and, here we go...

Hey... it's about me....

I sometimes get mad suddenly

I don't even know why, that's all just happened suddenly...

I just feel so insecure with myself

Feels like no one understand me..

I know if i'm stubborn, sucks, childish selfish or anything bad that people think about me,

I just actually need someone who can understand me..

Sometimes it feels better, when you got mad to yourself, you just hurt your body,

but i know it's not right,

but sometimes and sometimes, it could make you feel better,

or screaming, or singing, or crying....

I don't know what is better....

Oh that's all i think...

Thank you.... xD hahaha